So this morning I went to my computer science class 4 (four) hours early. Then I was late to class by an hour and eventually missed the class altogether. Only thing I understood from this event was confusion. Instead of heading to class I spent the day with my brother getting a few things done around the city and playing chess. After paying my phone bill and toaster payments, we headed to my favorite Cafe in Bilecik, TR… “Zeplin”. Playing chess with my brother is extremely fun because we’re both almost equally matched.
When I got home, I noticed I had a message reply on facebook from an old friend of mine from Texas. It was from a friend that I’ve been thinking of contacting since before I came to Turkey. The reason why I’ve been thinking of contacting her was because I was a terrible friend, and I wasn’t thoughtful when I ended our friendship, actually I was extremely selfish. Without not knowing how to ask for forgiveness, I kept delaying that apology letter from fear of not knowing what the reaction would be. I totally shattered my friends soul and now, after a year of silence, I was to ask them for forgiveness. I always assumed they would just not reply or worse, tell me to never contact them again. But I gathered all my courage and regret, and sent it. Now we are friends again, and of course time is needed for the friendship to heal and fix but for now, getting that apology accepted reply, feels like no other feeling in the world.