As days go by, life whispers cold words onto my shoulders and send a chill down my spine. I feel more and more distant from my talents and less inspired than ever before. I lack a muse. I’ve now more books on education than I do on arts, music, and computers combined. I’ve no will to continue music. I’ve put aside dance and focused on teaching. This is my resignation letter for my career in music. However, I see brighter days for me in the future. I am not pessimistic. I am a survivor.
So, its been a long time since I’ve wrote on my WordPress. Here’s what I’ve done for the past 6 (six)-7 (seven) months.
I’ve moved to Eskisehir, a city relatively close to Bilecik, to teach English and save some money. I thought at a private language school called Asem Kids. I’ve posted a bunch of pictures of me and my students on my Instagram (@turkdragon13). It was a great experience for me. I’ve learned how to teach small and large children classes. One of the hardest things to do was to teach the unwilling and uncooperative 8 (eight) year old students. The young children were extremely hard to control however it still was a great experience. I also gave private classes to university students and people in international business. The private lessons consist of practical speaking, everyday / casual conversation, and English in the Business World (Professional English).
When I first went to Eskisehir I lived in a neighborhood called “Adalar”, it translates to “The Islands”. Their is a very small creek like river that flows through the city and it is beautiful. There is walkways, cafes, and restaurants on both sides of the river. I lived right by the river for about 2 months with the view of the beautiful scenery right under my window. After 2 (months) I received news of one of my closest friends had moved into the city as well, and not that far from me. Since his apartment was right on the Bars Street, I did not hesitate to move in with him. I lived there for about 4 (four) months and now i have returned to the city of Bilecik.
This semester in school I want to concentrate on my school work. Besides from the school, I plan on starting a YouTube Chanel for Video Game Vlogging (Yes, it is spelled Vlogging | With 2 g’s | Source: The word Blog; Blogged, Blog, Blogging). First I plan on buying a good 720p web cam and a USB microphone to start recording on my HP G56. Through the course of 6 months I’ll (hopefully) be putting together a monster Desktop to Stream 4K. I will first start streaming MMORPG’s and MMO’s that are free-to-play (like Dofus and Fiesta Online). This is because my current hardware doesn’t support anything made after 2006 (sadly :’c ).
So this is currently what’s going on in my life. I’ve pushed away from Music and Dance until I have the funds I need to continue pursuing life with my passion.
-My heart whispers things that my wallet cant afford.
In the past few I’ve researched everything I can on YouTube partnership and Google Analytics. I’ve monetized my videos and created the proper accounts needed. I’ve also been researching ways to spread word about my existence and my talents. I’ll soon (hopefully) be starting a Pod Cast. I’ve acquired the microphone setup and now have all the hardware needed. I am now only missing topics to discuss. I feel as if I’m taking on too many objectives at once. This gives me the same feeling I felt when I had all those unfinished quests on Skyrim. However, I am determined to go through with all of this. I guess only time will tell. Also, I want to remind everybody that Bilecik, Turkey is not exactly thee best place to try to expand your talents due to the fact that the city is so small and every resident is both close-minded as well as “old-school”. However, once again, I am determined to go through with this.
I am currently looking up how to do nice edits on videos. I’ve spent the last two weeks split between practice in both music and dance studio times, and searching how to shoot how to videos. I will start uploading how to dance videos on YouTube every week or every month. (Once a week or once a month). Looking forward to this new project. We aren’t that hopeful about the second stage of the competition as they have called at an inconvenient time for us. We might have to drop out of the competition. As there is no one to practice with I have been occupying most of my time with video editing software. Once I feel comfortable enough editing the videos to my liking I will start uploading them.
Update (August 10, 2015) : Well this project failed miserably. Maybe I’ll reboot when I have a better computer and camera.
I’ve discovered a new instrument. The Theramin !! I watched “Frank” today with my manager Nuray and music producer Ilker Ergur. During the movie I noticed an odd instrument which was controlled by hand movements and an antenna. I immediately fell in love it. After intensive research I’ve learned almost everything needed to learn about the instrument and have decided to purchase one. Hopefully Soon !!
After accepting my obsession over the theramin I’ve decided one of the things I want to do as a musician is to have an awesome library of different instruments such as the Laser Harp, AlphaSphere (which I LOVE), and the Talkbox. Seeing these amazingly different instruments sparked a new type of inspiration in me for music.
Today, I will be teaming up with a local musician to finish our new mix for the dance show. It’s tiring looking at a computer screen for 13 hours, but it’s gotta get done. RIght now I’m at the language school getting ready for class. One of my students here, in the class I’m about to attend, send me a birthday email. It felt great having having one of my students wish me a happy birthday.
There’s very little time for me to update my blog as often as I used to. I’ve also adapted to the social environment of Bilecik, Turkey, therefore I can’t quite tell you all how it feels to be a foreigner in Turkey. I no longer see myself as a foreigner, I see myself as a local. I’ve sort-of accepted Bilecik as my new home (that is until I move to Istanbul… whenever that is).
We will hopefully finish the track by dawn tomorrow and start working on a new choreography on Monday, I’ll keep you guys updated.
Lately I’ve been making a lot of websites. I’ve made 4 (four) in the past 2 (two) days for some local companies and people, and a professional one for a nationwide company.
When it comes to school, I’ve given up completely on my physics and mathematics classes. However, I’m still going to class to improve my Turkish vocabulary and general class comprehension of various topics. It’s getting to a point where I just want school to end already.
I haven’t been using my motorbike lately. It’s very annoying to have to deal with the bus schedules and I’m thinking about riding my bike tomorrow.
That’s pretty much it. There’s really nothing to write about at the moment because life is mundane. I’m going back and forth from the music and dance studio and school.
Before I start typing about all the stuff I’ve been doing lately, I want to apologize.I know I used to post everyday, and for the past couple of days I haven’t been able to access my WordPress account. I’ve purchased a new phone and my Authentication app was reset. Since I use various security measures on my WordPress, it was difficult for me to retrieve my info since everything was linked to my old phone. However, I’m back.
So… What have I been up to lately?
- Joined the biggest talent based competition in Turkey
- Working on near impossible projects (as usually)
- Tried to cope with my failure in my Physics test
As you already know, I had to enter a physics test Monday. Although I worked hard for the test, I couldn’t answer a single question and the experience in attending school in a different language finally did some damage, a lot of damage. I was ready to drop out when my manager said hold your head up high and keep pushing.
Also, I have a chance to transfer some credits to Turkey, which require some financial input. I am currently occupying some of my time with that.
Some projects I am taking part in are extremely professional projects that are grabbing attention from some successful businessmen / businesswomen. I am slowly developing a fear of them expecting to much from the projects that are currently being worked on. When I catch myself over thinking about this specific topic, I have to take a moment and just assure myself that I’ve been a dancer for more than 10 (ten) years, I have to remind myself that I’ve excelled at numerous dance competitions, and that i already started and there’s no going back now.
We’re (my manager and I) still awaiting news from the TV Channel to get back to us for the dates of the competition. However, we have been assured multiple times by various parties including the TV Channel faculty that we will be partaking in the competition.
On other news, one of my students who keeps up to date with my blogs, was upset with me not being able to update it in the past few days. So to all those following my blog, I sincerely apologize. I’ve fixed my security issues and now will continue to update my blog daily.
Finally, I’ve started posting videos on my Vine and Instagram. You can find them at :
Vine – Userllort
Instagram – Turkdragon13
As Always, Thank You All For Your Support !!
This morning I woke up extra early to get ready for the test which I thought took place at 8 (eight) am. After arriving to class, I met up with a class to study for the test and was informed that the test will be taking place in the class at 5 (five) pm. After attempting to under basic physics, I decided it was not a topic of my specific understanding. I can’t stress enough how difficult it is studying abroad. The classes are in a foreign language and the topics are difficult, even in your native language.
I just got off the phone with my manager to adjust the reschedulement of my session for today. Now I am taking a little break to write to all my followers.
As I was getting fresh air while rescheduling my session, I got a message on Kik from a person who claims they know me. After asking them where they know me from, I received an answer they left me confused. They said that I gave them my Kik in an ice cream store in California. Here’s the funny part, I never bought ice cream in California. If any of you want to Kik me remember that I am a musician and a dancer with a fan base. I try to talk to every single one of you, and I try to respond to every single message in a timely manner. For any of you that have not seen my social connections pages online here’s a small list:
Instagram – Turkdragon13
Kik – Turkdragon13
Vine – Userllort
Twitter – Userllort (I really don’t use or give out my twitter page)
Soundcloud – soundcloud.com/llort
Online Store – Bit.ly/llorT
FunnyJunk – Turkdragon
Tumblr – http://alicangarip.tumblr.com/
If there’s any other social media you use, comment what it is and I’ll let you know (reply) what my username is.
There’s this wonderful scenic area I stopped by before coming to school. From this place you can see all the factories of Bilecik, TR. Sometimes I up there and think, if this whole music thing doesn’t work out, I can finish my university education can be either be an employee or a CEO of any one of these factories.