As days go by, life whispers cold words onto my shoulders and send a chill down my spine. I feel more and more distant from my talents and less inspired than ever before. I lack a muse. I’ve now more books on education than I do on arts, music, and computers combined. I’ve no will to continue music. I’ve put aside dance and focused on teaching. This is my resignation letter for my career in music. However, I see brighter days for me in the future. I am not pessimistic. I am a survivor.
Before I start typing about all the stuff I’ve been doing lately, I want to apologize.I know I used to post everyday, and for the past couple of days I haven’t been able to access my WordPress account. I’ve purchased a new phone and my Authentication app was reset. Since I use various security measures on my WordPress, it was difficult for me to retrieve my info since everything was linked to my old phone. However, I’m back.
So… What have I been up to lately?
- Joined the biggest talent based competition in Turkey
- Working on near impossible projects (as usually)
- Tried to cope with my failure in my Physics test
As you already know, I had to enter a physics test Monday. Although I worked hard for the test, I couldn’t answer a single question and the experience in attending school in a different language finally did some damage, a lot of damage. I was ready to drop out when my manager said hold your head up high and keep pushing.
Also, I have a chance to transfer some credits to Turkey, which require some financial input. I am currently occupying some of my time with that.
Some projects I am taking part in are extremely professional projects that are grabbing attention from some successful businessmen / businesswomen. I am slowly developing a fear of them expecting to much from the projects that are currently being worked on. When I catch myself over thinking about this specific topic, I have to take a moment and just assure myself that I’ve been a dancer for more than 10 (ten) years, I have to remind myself that I’ve excelled at numerous dance competitions, and that i already started and there’s no going back now.
We’re (my manager and I) still awaiting news from the TV Channel to get back to us for the dates of the competition. However, we have been assured multiple times by various parties including the TV Channel faculty that we will be partaking in the competition.
On other news, one of my students who keeps up to date with my blogs, was upset with me not being able to update it in the past few days. So to all those following my blog, I sincerely apologize. I’ve fixed my security issues and now will continue to update my blog daily.
Finally, I’ve started posting videos on my Vine and Instagram. You can find them at :
Vine – Userllort
Instagram – Turkdragon13
As Always, Thank You All For Your Support !!
Today the dance studio, my manager, and I came to an agreement of using the dance studio 2 (two) times a week to work on my dance routine, which we (my manager and I) spent 30 (thirty) minutes in today for practice time (and a bit showing of showing off), for a contest I will hopefully be entering soon. The contest we are trying to get a spot in is the biggest talent contest in Turkey, “Yetenek Sizsiniz Turkiye”. If we can get a spot in this contest, many doors will open for us.
We were able to get the dance studio to sponsor us with costumes and studio usage privileges. This will be playing a huge factor in our projects due to financial freedom from our biggest expenses.
The second day at the language school wasn’t bad. The students still came to class with the willingness they had to learn English from two days ago, student like this is what inspires me to continue teaching. For the next class, I’m thinking of starting with basic dialogues and conversation. Hopefully after a few classes they will be able to write their own dialogues to play out in class.
Being in a new country that holds adventure everyday and being able to take part in life changing projects feel amazing. Hopefully we will start taking videos and uploading them so I can show all of you how well my dancing is.
Today, with my manager, we’ll be checking out a new dance studio to start shooting videos every week. There’s also a possibility of me teaching Hip-Hop dance to students. It’s going to be pretty hard to commercialize in such a small city, but we will be doing the best we can with all the possibilities we can. All my followers will sure to get an update every time we upload a video.
Today well be my second day at the language school in this semester. I’m thinking about starting basic dialogues with the students on basic english. Next week I’ll be discussing business appropriate introductions and conversations.
Tonight I’ll post about the second day of my teaching and the conclusion to the agreement we might reach with the dance studio.
So, last night, I started teaching English at Reform Language School and got home late. Well, that’s my excuse for not updating my blog. I don’t really know how to explain the feeling of teaching. I taught back in America, but it’s completely different teaching in Turkey. Back in America, the assignments i gave to my students were simple and helped develop them in English by improving their communication skills much more efficiently. For example, I would have them hold a conversation with a stranger for five minutes minimum as an assignment. Here, I can’t really do that, since everyone speaks Turkish it’s difficult for my students get the required social experience. I have to be more creative in my assignments here in Turkey.
Besides that, someone recognized me from back when I was a kid. With my family, we constantly came to Turkey to visit relatives and apparently every time we were in Bilecik there was a neighbor that I spent quite some time with as a kid. Here’s what went down.
I was walking through the entrance of the building with my friends and there was a student passing out flyers for a new study hall that teaches almost all classes including music and dance. I specifically said music and dance because here in Bilecik, talent based classes and hobbies are seen as a waste of time. Seeing that this location offered both music and dance I was excited to look into it.
Anyway, as the flyer handed to me, the student asked if I was “Alican”, and i stood surprised and asked if they knew me from class. However, the answer I received shocked me. They told me how we used to play near my Aunts house as a kid. I thought about it the entire day because I legitimately could not remember them.
This encounter made me think, “I wonder how much more people I met as a kid?”